My worst fear

It's funny how what you thought was your biggest fear, the thing you thought would hurt the most..in the end doesn't destroy like you thought. You picture the perfect way you think you want your life to go and when something comes along and threatens to steal that away from you, fretting over preventing it consumes your life. At times we focus on certain things for so long, we are convinced we know what we want, what we need. Although when in reality, yes we want that, but only because we have spent so much time convincing ourselves of it. If we step back and take a long, close look we can begin to see the holes. Sometimes we realize our perfect ending, isnt exactly perfect or that it's ultimately not what we wanted. It seems like lessons like this always have to be learned the hard way. I wasted a year of my life learning that exact lesson. My eyes are just now beginning to open and I had to face what I thought was my biggest fear. My world was completely changed and flipped upside down and to my surprise, I'm okay. I survived, it didn't break me as I thought it did. Actually it made me stronger and its almost a relief to have it over with, to know at the end of the day, life goes on.